January Bleugghhhhhhh..................

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So, its the 3rd of January and I'm depressed!
No more Christmas parties, no more daytime drinking, no more long lie-ins (aka hangovers) and no more festive cheer!
I have to be honest though, I am kind of glad to see the back of 2006 - it wasn't my favourite year, in fact it was a bloody awful year!!!!

That takes me to why I've decided to write this blog, call it therapy - or a delayed need to write a diary (I stopped writing one as a kid after my younger sister picked the lock and found out about my crush on Gregory Hill and told everyone at school!).

So I write this first post full of hope for the year ahead. New beginnings and all that - how long it'll last is any ones guess - how long do New Years resolutions last? Not very long in my book let me tell you!!!!

So I leave behind a 2006 that was full of heartache, illness, stress, bereavement, you name it!!! The worst thing to happen, and the one that is going to take the longest to get through was the break up of what was an almost near perfect relationship for a while. I'll never know what happened but it truly sucked. It was October - its now January. How far on am I getting over him? Not very far!

The 'ex' was a breath of fresh air when we met, sweet, good looking, considerate, and very keen (if not a little over keen at first). I didn't want to get involved in a serious relationship but what can I say? I fell in love - and boy did I fall hard. We were the Golden Couple, the love sick teenagers (albeit 26 year old ones!), the perfect match. Sure we had our moments (doesn't everyone?), we were both mardy bums (the Arctic Monkeys even wrote a song about us!) and we argued about some stupid things, but our relationship was great and I felt very lucky. It wasn't long before we started talking about a future together and I was filled with excitement and hope.

Alas though, it didn't last. Things changed - he changed. Gone was the thoughtful, caring, romantic guy I fell in love with and in its place a selfish, uninspiring, no effort replacement. We both had stress outside the relationship but we let it tear us apart and in the end, the guy who had declared I was his 'one' decided that actually, I wasn't and even worse - he didn't have feelings for me anymore. Ouch! So I of course chased him, begged for him to take me back, made a total and utter arse of myself (and I won't even go into the drunken text messages - urgh, the shame!!!)

Never in my life did I think a break up would hurt so much but I guess there is always that one that totally and utterly breaks your heart - and he was that guy!
But its onwards and upwards from now on, I'm an attractive girl (so I'm told) with a lot to say for myself, a good job, a beautiful home and great friends and family. So I'm very lucky!

So join me on my journey - it might be a bumpy ride at times but I can guarantee a few laughs - drunken escapades, dodgy dates, my dedication to Hollyoaks, the list goes on and on.....

So I'll see you soon

Polly xxxx